Fuck!

I am not happy with myself right now. The thoughts in my head are "I should have registered earlier" or variants of the same.

Today was an orientation/advising/class registration day at the college. I already felt panicy about 15 minutes into the orientation because I worried that my financial aid wouldn't be able to cover the tuition but I calmed down for a bit. While waiting for an advisor, I talked to a couple people.. usual socializing type stuff.

I sat down with an advisor and we went through the course guide and such to find classes that weren't already filled since the ones I wanted to take (English 101 and Math 080) were closed. I ended up with "Powerful College Reading", "Intro to Human Services", and "Intro to Education". Not too bad. It's still kinda down the career choices I've thought about.

I found a payphone in a separate building and called dad to say that I finished with the advisor and that I was on my way to the financial aid office, which was in an entirely different building. It was about 5 minutes past 4 PM at that time.

I found the building and went up to the floor, and immediately waited in line for around 10 minutes before meeting with a financial aid person. I was to turn in a data sheet and some sort of dependency sheet with a copy of our 2008 tax form. Turns out that I couldn't copy the tax form in that office so I had to go back to the building I used the payphone in and to the library to use the copy machine there.

Well, the damn library was closed but there was a copy machine for use in the student newspaper room so I used that and ran back to the financial aid people. I waited a few more minutes in the line (not nearly as bad as it was earlier), only to recieve bad news.

My FAFSA shit was turned in too late or processed too late or something so it wouldn't be sent in time for the fall quarter. I could still use it but not until the winter and spring quarters.

THe thing is, I NEED to go to college so I can stay on mom's dental insurance so unless I can pay the $985.00 out of pocket, I'm fucked! I wouldn't be so fucked if I didn't have to take on 12 or more credits but.. shit. It needs to be paid by September 1st, 6 PM. There is the 20/40 plan though, but we still wouldn't be able to afford it.

The 20/40 plan is where I pay half the tuition by September 1st, then 1/4 of the remainder on the 20th calendar day, then the last 1/4 on the 40th calendar day. It's a binding contract though so once I sign up for it, I have to pay it that way. The financial aid lady said they'd reimburse me for paying out of pocket but the pocket is damn empty right now.

I'm going to figure out another way to pay this off, but right now I'm too tired and upset to think about it any more. Dad is/was pretty pissed off about it after I told him but there isn't anything that can be done in this exact moment.

Oh, and the universe must have thought it was funny to have a bank statement sent to me to once again remind me I have $13.70 in my account. My statements are sent so sporadically that I haven't been expecting one for months and it happened to be delivered today. Fucking hilarious.